well, where to even start, i always have this problem every time i update lol but here it goes!!! tonight i planned on going to look at a car with my dad because im looking at upgrading!!! but like always he finds a way to drag things out so we wouldnt end up having to go, sooooooo freaking annoyingggg!!! then after that happened and i was all pissed off at my dad i went to study for my precalc test with brandon and fergie!!! i would say it helped a little bit, but still pretty iffy on that test tomorrow :/ besides all these miniscule events in life, when i got home from studying, after i ate dinner of course, i talked to my mom for about 20 minutes.  she brought up that my grandparents have their 50th wedding anniversary coming up in december and how we are having it at our house!!!  then we got on the topic of my grandparents and when they dated, got married and all that good stuff.  i knew they got married early, but i never knew exactly how early they did, it turns out they were married when my grandpa was 17 and my grandma was 15!!!!!!!  soooooo crazyyyyyyy!!!! and they are still together and still act like they are in there teens :) it makes me so happy seeing them like that when i know that one day i want to marry the one and only love of my life :)))))))) you know who you are babyyyyy :))))) it just gives me hope that one day that could be us and in the end, our life on earth is about the pursuit of happiness, and she makes me the happiest man in the world, so its only right if we stay togetherrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))) i love you beautiful!!!!  and then i got thinking about the big picture of life.  in all honesty its such an awesome thing we have going for us here on earth, but i always wonder if and what its like to be in heaven :) its just one of those things that you cant wrap your mind around so you always have different thoughts to ponder about it.  some days i think of how awesome it would be to live eternally in heaven with God our Father, and yet other im questioning the fact if there actually is a heaven or hell.  its a very hard concept to comprehend, but it all goes back to faith that we have to believe in what God proclaims to us.

I would write more but im already falling asleep                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

i dont even know where to start right now, but ill start with moving.  about a month ago my parents told my brother and I that we were moving and of course my first reaction was where and when.  so they showed us the house and the house is fantasticcccc!! it has a pool a four car garage, which means my car will be inside :) and it has a finished basement and is just all around bigger than our house now.  and up until today/tonight it really hit me that i didnt want to move out of our neighborhood :( some of our neighbors came over and we hung out with them for a while and talked about stuff and moving.  it just reminded that once we move we will be leaving all of our neighbors that we know so well and love :) its really sad we have to move but because of certain reasons that are out of our hands we have to :// its a sucky situation because we wont be right next door to all of our neighbors now and the fact that it happened so fast.  and the shitty part about it is that it didnt hit me until the last night i have to spend in the house :((( im really gonna miss this house and most of all my friends and neighbors i have in the neighborhood.  and when i walk into my room and see nothing out on shelves or in my closet or dresser and see everything in boxes it kills me to know that we are moving :((((((( when it all started happening i fell in love with the house and didnt really think much of leaving the neighborhood because i was caught up in the new house and the whole fact that we were moving, but like i said it finally hit me and now im just feeling kind of down :///

on a much more positive note my girlfriend is the most amazing, beautiful and sexy person in the world and i love her with all my heart :))))))))))))) i dont know what i would do without her (especially when it came to packing) ;) i love you baby.  this weekend we hung out after my game, which we lost :/ and the frustrating part about it is that we should have hands down won the game! but shit happens i guess.  we ended up just laying together watching tv just loving the fact that i was with the girl i want to spend the rest of my life with :-) it was the most amazing feeling just laying next to her knowing that i was with the girl who loves me just as much if i do, if not maybe a tiny bit more ;) baby you are just so amazing and perfect i wouldnt trade you for anything in the world babe!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))) i love you beautiful :) and thennnn saturday night we finished pack most of my room and then we went out to dinner!!!! we went to nikos!!! best japanese steak house i have been to by far!!! the steak was amazing along with the fried rice :) then after we went to dinner we went and got a redbox movie and went back to her house and watched it the rest of the night ;))))) saturday night was just as good as friday night, even though we didnt really do anything friday night lol i just love her so much i am at a loss for words to describe how i feel :-)))))))))))))) i love you baby :)))

and then there is football.  its been a rough season to say the least but it has been a good season for me because i am playing both ways on offense and defense!!! the main thing that made this season so hard is that we played in a different league which was much harder than the one we played in last year.  we shouldnt of lost hardly any of the games we did, but it goes back to big plays and missed opportunities that would have been huge game changers.  it just goes to show that you need all 11 players going 110% every down to succeed.  the season isnt over and if we win our lsat 2 district games then we have a good chance of getting our of districts for the first time EVER!!!!! which would really make me so damn happy since its my last football season ever!!!! and i want to make the best of it!!!

and thats about it :)

KMK

well it seems like its been FOREVERRRR since ive updated lol but here it goesss!!! summer was amazinggggg, even though my girlfriend was gone for the majority of it    :( but i have to say it was a damn good summer partying and hanging with the guys!!! thank God she came back for the last couple weeks of summmer so we could hang out and spend it together :))) then school started… blahhhhhh it was kind of fun seeing everyone again for like the first week, but after that its just the same old shit and im already ready to be out of here, in a sense. i cant wait for college because i will be on my own but on the same note im gonna miss highschool more then anything ive ever experienced in my life. ive been thinking about that a lot lately mainly because of football.  one night i just thought about how we only have 4 more games left of my entire football career….. it fucking sucks thinking about it, but it also gives me the extra edge to go out and give it 110 percent in my last month of football EVER :((((((((((((((((( then once football is over, its the countdown to the end of my highschool career :(((( god i love highschool sooooo muchhhhh its been the best time of my life, and like my dad told me when i started as a freshman, highschool will fly by so make the most of it, and of course i didnt cause i was like its 4 years lol but indeed he was right. it seems like just yesterday i was being dropped off by my parents for my first day of school and walking down the halls of a building i have never seen before.  it was intimidating that first couple weeks of freshman year, and now i am the one walking down the halls thinking of this amazing place as a second home and instead of being intimidated by the upper classman, i am now the upper classman intimidating the little freshman lol it all seems like such a blur because it flew by sooooooo fast, and call me crazy, but after highschool going by so fast, it made me look at the big picture of life… life seems like such a long journey that we are on but in reality it will fly by if you dont take the time to enjoy every minute of it.  thats why even though life may not be all that great at the moment, you better thank God for every day and every breath he gives you cause you never know when it will be your last :(((( im not sad, it just sucks that life has to be this short because i love my life and wouldnt trade a damn thing in my life, good or bad it makes me who i am and that is the person i am meant to be.  i love my life and am so thankful of everything God has given me here on Earth :))) gosh i feel so much better after getting all of that off my chest, i feel like the past week ive been dwelling on that whole aspect of life and not living it, at least when im alone thats what i have been thinking about.  now its up to me to make the best of every single day of every week of every month of every year that God lets me stay here on Earth :) its an amazing experience we have here on Earth and yet we get caught up in the stupid little things that in the long run dont mean a damn thing. its just crazy thinking about life itself, its an amazing gift that God gave us :)))) people need to focus on the people God put in their lives and this amazing place he gave us to live in and stop worrying about who is friends with who and what car that person drives or if that person really is cross eyed, God made that person unique for a reason and we need to see the beauty in every single person instead of critiquing  the person that walks by you by how big there nose is or if they have straight teeth or not. im not saying that i dont judge people because i am definitely guilty of it, but i am trying to get better about it so that i can see the beuty in everything that God put on this Earth.  yes i know its hard to do when your friend next to you is doing the exact thing i just described, but it comes down to what you yourself believe in and what you are willing to stand up for and what you will let slide.  i feel like i am just rambling on so im gonna wrap it up lol

all in all my life is perfect right now!!! :) i have an amazing family that i am SOOOO thankful for, even my little shithead brother hahaha i love you man, and my amazing parents who do sooo much for me, im gonna miss all of you when i go to college, and my most amazing girlfriend who i love with all my heart :))) even though she is getting almost as sarcastic as me ;) not there yet babe.  and all of my dearest friends who i truly love!!! :) not to mention all of my football teamates that i spend a ton of my time with, you guys are my brothers and thats the truth.  God all of this is possible because of You :) and im thankful for every day I am here on Earth with all of them. 

KMK

this summer has been an interesting summer to say the least. started out with a week full of hanging out with my baby before she left for camp :( it was an awesome week that we spent together before she left, but i wish we were able to do that all summer instead of the little time we get to see each other.  then once the first friday of summer hit it was the last day i would see her for a whole week, it doesnt seem like that long but when we go from seeing each other pretty much everyday its really weird and it sucks :/ then when michael apologized to her right before they both went to camp this summer, i knew that he was going to try and pull the typical shit of trying to hook up with her.  he has been texting her, talking to her and flirting like crazy, it pisses me off so much that he would do that and put her in the decision making spot.  it scares the hell out of me that this is going on, and if something does happen at camp, there is no way of me being able to find out about it because i have no contact with people up there.  im pretty much fucked on this deal if something does happen.  i just hope and pray that nothing happens between them because i love her and dont wanna loose her.  but if she cheats on me, you can forget about it.  i hate even talking about that but there is a possibility of that happening.  it sucks but the reality isnt always pretty.  on the positive side of things i got to see her this weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))) definitely the happiest feeling being with her!!! :D we really didnt do anything too exciting but it was just the fact of being able to hold her again that made me feel so good inside :) i love her to death and i wish i could see her every day, but i cant so i see her when i can and we make it through.  defintiely harder than i thought it was gonna be, but we can do it!! 

well on another note, im working at sunflower hills gold course this summer which is awesome by the way!!!! and going to weights every morning before work which is gonna suck this week, but it will be good for me.  all in all life has been good this summer so far. been to some good parties already, had an awesome bonfire which the fire department showed up to hahahahahahahaha and have went fishing a lot!!

this summer is going to be good, yet weird with my baby being gone :( its gonna be fun, yet scary with her and michael at camp.  its gonna be alright but i gotta keep reality in mind and everything will be fine. 

KMK

life has been amazing!!! my girlfriend is the best a guy could ask for and the only thing that sucks is that she is gonna be gone most of the summer. BUT our relationship is strong enough that i am positive we will be able to make it through this summer!!! :] yes it will be an interesting summer and will be fun, and i will make sure that i will be able to see my baby throughout this summer!! even though she will be in nebraska.  honestly i think it will be a fun roadtrip up to see her, knowing that when i get there i will be able to be with the girl who means the world to me!!!!!!!!!!!! :D  i honestly cant wait for the first week of summer that we are going to spend together before she leaves, yes it is going to be stressful because she is leaving soon, but it will be soooooo nice being with her as much as possible until she leaves :) when i think about her, i always go back to all the time we were just a thing and the story behing US :] pretty cool story actually.  it all started when she first transferred to sja.  we sat at the same lunch table for like a whole semester and we didnt even talk lol and then magically one day we started talking!! then once school was out, summer was here!!! so she always hung out with me and the guys and on this one night we were all up at sonic on 87th and we were just messing around being usual teenagers lol then once it was time for all of us to leave, cause of course we all have curfews, i took her home.  so we got back to her house and we sat there for a couple minutes we said goodbye and then we kissed!!! i remember this day and always will!!! and another funny memory i have with her is when i almost kissed her hahahahaha i chickened out right at the last second and just hugged her, such a bitch move lol but anyways, after we kissed we started talking and everything, then i remember she had people over at her house one night and i came over, im pretty sure after my football game, and we were all hanging out, and that night was the first time we made out!!! i remember all this stuff about her, crazy but i do! and from then we were a thing for god only knows how long lol now im gonna jump a couple months to new years eve. started out at sams house and got kind of fucked up there and i kissed her when it struck midnight.  after sams party i went and spent the night at fergies house.  and we got back there and decided to have some girls come over, bad decision but i dont know if i would be with my girl today if that didnt happen.  but i ended up hooking up with another girl.  then after a while me and that other girl decide to fake a relationship and this really pissed her off!! tehehe then after a week or so sometime in the month of january me and her hook up while all of this crap is happening.  january was by far the weirdest month!!! and during this month the other girl checks my phone and sees my texts to her and flips on me and at this point i tell her what she wants to hear and in my head im like whatever lol then it comes to the night i will never forget!!! so it was a friday night at the beginning of februaryi hang out with the other girl and she sees my texts to her and she freaks on me and i end up not hanging with her until after the basketball game instead of not going to the game. so the game is over and im driving home, and at this point i think i shouldnt hangout with her so i call melanie and ask her and she says i really should, so i end up stopping by and picking her up.  i will never forget this, when she walked out of her house i remember it was like seeing her for the first time all over again!!! craziest feeling!! so we talk and we go back to my house.  we go to my room to talk and we sit on my bed, the most awkward thing of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we were sitting so far apart from each other it was rediculous!!! and we start talking and then we get on the topic of us, and she starts talking for a little bit and then just starts crying :( i felt awful and right then i knew that we should be together and i had to get rid of that other girl (hoe) hahahaha so once we are back on good terms we make up and yaaaaaa hahahaha i remember this day so well and i think back and wonder where i would be today if i didnt call melanie, or if i didnt pick her up that night, it could be completely different. kind of a crazy story but in the end we got each other and i have never been happier :] love you baby :]